A World With No Voice

I watched "The Duchess" the other day. The movie is definitely well produced and has an interesting storyline. It reminded me of a novel which I'd read earlier this year to write a response for English class called "Beware, Princess Elizabeth" written by Carolyn Meyer. This novel fell under the genre historical fiction. It tells the story about Elizabeth Tudor or otherwise Elizabeth I. Even though now and then when we are tied up with so many errands sometimes you may feel that we have many more duties than those who live in era where position brought remarkable respect. Reading the book and also watching the movie "The Duchess" showed me that people of those days had more weight over their shoulders than what we have now. People where made to respect people of a higher rank in society to them whether they like it or not and if they did not obey their life could have been taken away. I bit scary. In the present world, we are able to create our own future and "position" in society.
Now imagine the world we're each person had been given a role from the day of birth which they were meant to follow whether it was the duke or a slave. This new role will never change, no recruitment and definitely no such thing as a promotion. In this world, the king's voice is greater than any other and speaking up is totally out of the question unless you're prepared to be charged with death. There is no fairness, you upset the king's mood and down drains out you life. If you are given the role of a ruler of a territory you'll be given a palace to live in along with people to serve your needs. Although if the palace seems lonely lonely then you may need company so you'd look to the people who serve you. If you express your thoughts too boldly and say anything negative about people higher or rank then this may be reported and again a death penalty could be given.
Scary huh? I would have imagined people going crazy with all that stress and self-consciousness in their head. You must have been a very composed person to live through that era. To express a point you must have had to be very smart, controlled and conscious of your surroundings. Besides that, I do recommend the movie and the book, especially the book, they are both very entertaining.

Staring At Blank Walls

This week was hectic at the start, running out of time to do the many jobs pending. Although, now it's cleared up. I have finally have time on my hands. There's always a time to struggle but there's always a time of relaxing.
I've finished reading Twilight long back. If I could only find someone like Edward Cullen; that would be a character in my wildest fantasies that I long to be real in my life. After reading Twilight, it's made me want to read other works about romance and steer my imagination in that direction. While I wait for the book after Twilight in the series I've been reading, not necessarily about love, but other works. The books seem truthfully boring compared to Twilight. Even though Twilight may not have as many aspects of an action book it can really make everything feel almost real.
Before I entered this phase of "having not much to do" I thought i would enjoy having spare time. In a way I want that busy life to come back. It's kinda weird how the brain works. It's the same when your cold, you seem to want the weather to be hot; and vice versa. We want what we don't have but we barely seem to rejoice what we have already.
It's funny what i do in my spare time. Sometimes when I think about it, it seems that all the time I have has gotten my head in. I've developed a habit of staring. Sometimes I don't even realize I'm staring at a wall. I just do it. Sometimes daydreaming, sometimes my mind is just blank when I stare. I don't really pay attention to what I'm staring at but it just happens. I've lost myself daydreaming in class this week. Just staring at the door until, my brain came back to collect my conscience me. I don't think it's anything to worry about, maybe it's because of boredom or a lack of things to occupy my brain. I'm not exactly sure though. Looks like I've got a mystery to solve.

I Swear I'm Not Procrastinating

It's been a while since my last post, I'm not procrastinating of course. It's just because my life had become a ball of posted notes. I had schoolwork, errands to do and places to go also mentioning i had to take care of my usual routine. Now, things have cleared up. The layer of haze has thinned out. I'm still not carefree but I don't think I know of anyone with a carefree life.
There are so many things on my mind. I've noticed how much time I've wasted when I wasn't as caged with errands. Like for example, when I didn't have homework or places to go, I'd just waste my time either watching television or going on the internet. Yet, now I realize, there are so many things i can do to enjoy myself, I've also realised how much I enjoy spending time on my own, needing nothing more than the comfort of my home. This summer I have briefly planned in my mind what I want to do. I want to start roleplaying online, might sound a bit weird when I mention "online" but when you actually get engaged it's quite interesting. When I mean roleplay I mean literate roleplay without chat speakers. I've been lurking through a couple of boards of role play recently to get myself familiar with the whole world. As I lurked past, I was surprised to see how creative some people are and how much talent anonymous people have with introducing, describing and adding personality to a character. It almost makes the roleplay feel real. Secondly I want to get back in touch with photography. I've taken a bulk of photos already but i never actually printed many out. When I find the time I want to head back to places I used to visit and my past and take photos.
I was pondering around looking for that book called "Twilight" ever heard?(who hasn't?) It's really hard to get your hands on that book unless your looking to buy. I wasn't in a total rush to read the book because I knew I had too many things to do so I didn't bother to buy. So I called the library up hoping to reserve it atleast because great demand made it difficult to borrow straightaway. Here's the conversation I had (tampered with a little):
Librarian: Hello how can I help you
Me: Uhh, hi. Could I please borrow the book Twilight?
Librarian: Umm, yep. Let me have a look for you.
Me: Alright, thanks.
Librarian: I'm sorry I'll have to put you on reserve, there's a wait ahead of you.
Me: yep that's fine.
Librarian: Could I please have your card nuumber?
Me: (gives card number).
Librarian: Alright your on the list.
Me: Could I just ask how long it would take, before I get the book?
Librarian: There's 42 people ahead of you and we have 3 copies. So about 2 years.
Me: Uh, okay...thanks.
After that, I was just shocked. Not shocked as much for the 2 year wait but the tone of her voice. She was so calm about it. I was hoping to get it by summer holidays and then she says "two years" with the most "there you go, enjoy and have a good day" voice. I started cracking up a laugh after that phone call. So there my journey started to venture out for that novel about vampires and romance called "Twilight". I called up another library and they put me on reserve saying that i could be lucky and get it by summer. Two weeks followed and we were in the library for english at school. I hardly do borrow books from the school library because I prefer the bigger libraries with a bigger range of book. Anyway, I was curious, how long would the wait be here, 3 years? Maybe they don't even have the book i thought. I searched Twilight in the terminal. "1 out of 1 copies" was displayed at the bottom. This can't be real i thought to myself. I search for it on the shelves and there it was on a spine label "Twilight". I picked it out. This wasn't Twilight, maybe it was a fake I thought. It was Twilight except with the old cover. The book was unbelievably worn out and chunks of pages were only hanging on by only the the stick of some tape. Well it was Twilight alright. As fragile as it be. My final exams period was on so I was planning to save the reading till 5 days later so my exams would pass. I couldn't resist that night and I started reading. I finished the book over the weekends when i had borrowed it friday. I didn't have much time though because i had to study aswell as go places. So i used a technique i call "express reading". I read in the car, while i waited, on the dinner table, instead of my favourite show which runs for 30 minutes. I basically read wherever I found and excuse to instead of wasting my time. It took away some of my studying time but I didn't mind because my science exam wasn't hardly on anything I had studied. The whole year over studied for our stupid yearly science test. It was based more on general knowledge and we'd done all this work on memorizing formulae, theory and examples of the topics. None of the studying material mattered in the test. There I was the two days before, studying newton's three laws, ecology, forensics and all this other useless material. What a laugh.

Word Of Warning

Holidays have started. The spring holidays where the flowers start blooming and bringing color into the once dry plain season. For me I think these holidays would be all about change. Changing my lifestyle. Bringing out my hobbies. Unfortunately time is an obstacle which when passed can't be brought back in front of you. So here I am stuck indoors while the sun shines doing my schoolwork. Well there is still some enjoyment outdoors but isn't the "most meant to be fantastic holidays" wasted behind books or worrying about school tasks. On the other side i do have time to sit down and just as they say "chillax" listening to music and doing nothing as thoughts blow in and out through my mind. I long for a day where it's hot outside while I'm inside the house on my bed listening to the wind while a song plays with a beat which makes you feel like swaying or dancing.
I heard the song "Ring a Ring o Rosies" recently. I've sung this rhyme a number of times when i was young althought i never knew what it meant. So i decided to do my research, find out the meaning shadowed behind these innocent words. The nursery rhyme "Ring a ring o Rosies" has a message within. See if you can catch the meaning, read it carefully to understand-
Ring-a-Ring o'Rosies
A Pocket full of Posies
"A-tishoo! A-tishoo!"
We all fall Down!
The words "ring a ring a rosies" relates to the symptoms of the bubonic plague which were said to be rashes ringed in shape with a rosy color. The next line "pocket full of posies" suggests that in the time of the plague, people who had the plague would hold posies(a type of flower) in their pockets because it was said that smelling them would sure them from the plague. The third line relates to the sneezing that was also another symptom of the plague. With the meaning of the first three lines the forth line becomes quite obvious. "we all fall down" or in other words, we all rest in peace. Many or all nursery rhymes are filled with message and also many with warnings and dark messages which relate back to history. It's quite disturbing knowing this information when in the past you may have sung this to someone who you care for. You probably have sung this song to young children to put a smile on their faces or as a bedtime song. From that they learn the songs and sing them because the lyrics are catchy. You see children singing nursery rhymes innocently with a meaning that could be quite disturbing.

First Gush Of Spring

I'm not procrastinating to post it's just that I was held back. Held back to finish off my school work rather than update my blog. People say that education is meant to help your well being later on in life but when the pressure piles on your back your lifestyle begins to change and it's hard to be free. This is how i felt a week ago. Why can't our assignments be spread out throughout the year instead of given all at once.
On the brighter hand, spring has officially started. This season is meant to be "the" season of the year when the birds fly from place to place, the breeze swoops across the edge of your cheek and when the gold rays of sunlight warm up the ends of your toes. This month is all about how nature blossom and displays it's colors just like a flower. It's a change from the winter chill. The sun stays up a little longer which means there's time for that evening walk with your dog.
I finally got my own camera from all the money i had accumulated from my birthday. It's Sony and it's stylish! This spring with holidays edging in less than a week I'll be snapping away with flash. It's brought me back to my hobby which is photography. When I've captured the right amount of photo's and touched and customized them up with imaging software, I'll print them in a matte finish. It'll pass my time over the holidays.
During this spring holidays I also want improve my fitness. According to my physical activity results (flexibility, endurance, speed, etc) and BMI(body mass index) I have a well balanced lifestyle. Even though my health is good doesn't everyone aim for the top? I'm quite competitive in sports so I basically want to be near the top. This holidays I'm concentrating on my own well-being. Of course there'll always be the day out with friends and a muck around. Till then though, I'll just have to countdown.

The Dawn Of August

It has surely been quite a while since my last post. I don't know where my conscious was. Maybe my head was wasting all those precious moments by flying in the clouds. Time has been quite precious for me for the last few days although it's not over for me right now as time is becoming skimmer by the minute. It's also easy how you can just waste all that precious time without even being completely conscious. I don't think I've fulfilled much this month but I know I've had a great time. I think I'm becoming to spend more time with family I guess, I haven't been on the computer for leisure time in over a week. Well not exactly, I've come on the computer to finish my school work but I was diverted(only a little bit) to mucking around; I mean who could resist?
Well the Olympics are starting today and I've heard the opening is said to be spectacular. I agree with this prediction. The Chinese are very hard worker as many of our products all are made in China, even the designer brands like Prada. Not only that, the Chinese are very creative and artistic looking at their designs of many objects. They are also a very traditional nation, they learn to believe and also continue to believe. Whether it's belief in religion or the belief in their nation's tradition, of what I've seen.
There is so many things going on in life for me now. "Celebration" would be the keyword to describe it. Parties, festivals and other small things that get me highly excited. August is the month to really start living life the way you want, that's how I see it. I've even dragged myself to the library to borrow some books and get into reading again. I really enjoy reading and writing but it's hard to find time for it so I guess I'll have to squeeze every second to finish the books I've borrowed.

California Dreaming

The last couple of weeks have been quite calm and peaceful and with holidays which have just started, the day exists as blank and ordinary. I've been planning to write something over the holidays and express my thoughts or just write something which will keep me occupied during the holidays. I don't think I will get to doing that this week as I've been extremely lethargic. Although, I have been able to reconnect myself into a past hobby. And that is coding layouts and making graphics which I used to meddle with frequently a long time ago. As an example of my talents I've been able to create a new blog layout. When I say "blog layout" I mean create a main picture and a background. I can't be bothered making a proper blog layout because I know that I'll eventually get bored of the current layout and want to change. So then the whole drama of creating a new layout will start again and when presenting a layout I'm quite picky. The current main picture didn't quite turn as exquisite as I expected it to. I want to make a screen shot page for all my past layouts but I guess this is too early to recount my layouts as I've only had three with two of them being created by myself.
Lately I've heard of many people making lists. I want to make one for myself but I can't pinpoint exactly what it would be on. I want it to last me a while not just for a week or a month. So when I complete the list, it will fulfill something in me and seem as a kind of accomplishment.
I've figured out a question which has been itching my mind past a month. It isn't a question which I see as big but it's one of those questions which a wrong decision can turn to regret. This question is subject selection, I've already picked two but a third was which I was pondering on. When I think about it, the subject course runs for two years and with a wrong decision it can become a long unit of time in misery and boredom. Well anyway getting back to my thoughts earlier in the month, I let that question slip my mind and focus on the present distorts I face in life hoping that maybe one day the answer will just knock me in the head in future. I almost forgot about it until this week. This is when my interest in graphics struck me again and I went crazy into applying my ideas into creating new designs. So the next time someone asks me "what did you do in the holidays?" I can say "I made a decision of which path I want to follow in life; and you?". See, it's all so simple to make something seem much bigger than it really is in the english language.
Yesterday, I had a dream which I don't think I'll ever forget. It was something that I really wanted to write about and to just openly express. I had a dream about myself enrolling into a boarding school. I wasn't living life in a boarding school but I was looking around the school because I was going to call it my home soon (don't ask when). Well, it was so posh and tidy, the students wore crisp, fresh clothes which included a tie and they wore rimmed hats with silk ribbons to restrain their hair. It was an all girls school ofcourse. The buildings where like castles and the amount of land which the school occupied was far than generous. The speech of the the people was so calm and disciplined, everyones actions was disciplined. There was a scene which I clearly remember when I was with my parents on the asphalt where there was a fountain streaming with water. People walked past, not in crowds. It was so peaceful... and then, I woke up. I just sat up on my bed, thinking, reminiscing. I remember visiting every area of the school but not the dormitories. That is what I've always feared about boarding schools, I don't care as much about the hygiene of the school when comparing it to the place where I sleep and exercise my routine. Why wasn't I able to imagine the dormitories? Anyway, I went on thinking about how life would be if I did live my life in a boarding school. Personally, I've hated even to think of the idea of a boarding school, away from family, cutting your whole life away from the world. That thought would always scare me if I had to go to a boarding school. But somehow just one dream, just a few thoughts changed my mind that day, the way of how I view a boarding school. I wanted to enroll. I wanted to wear the crisp uniform with the rimmed hats and wear strands of silk ribbons on my hair, learn to take care of myself and most of all, be disciplined. That day was quite a stunner for me, how my thoughts were shaped into something totally new. I know people who go to boarding schools and when I look back at them I usually feel a sense of woe towards them. Am I just a bit childish or can I relate to many others out there?

Holding The Sword Of Pride And Intuition.

The rain is clearing, the sun is arising and the clouds seem oblivious, leaving a rich blue sky. That's what my life seem like now. The "my time" of what seemed to consist of minutes seems like lots of hours. The hectic life that i live has calmed, as in the errands have vanished. This week I want to experience the feeling of boredom which has been a rare feeling during the past couple of months. Yep, that's right months not weeks. But it's not the boredom you feel when being an audience in a debate. It's the type of boredom you feel when your in our room on a Sunday with hours of time on your hands not knowing what to do.
Alike my previous entry I mentioned my horoscope and since my future was correctly predicted, I read my horoscope for the week. It stated that my life would take a rather large change on Tuesday and that somewhere i will have to start making decisions through the week which will have a great impact. So far, nothing of the sort has come up but it could be one of those things where you need to deeply look into to understand. But i do have to admit the week has been different, I can't really put my finger on it but all I can point out is to say it's somehow different.
I really have to credit this week for improvement, I'm finding myself, my peace. I'm playing better tennis. My hits are improving and they are more precise and powerful than ever. I observed that about myself in training. Even better I found a training partner this week. I haven't started a training session yet but we've sessioned one which lies ahead in the future.
I wonder what I'm going to do this weekend. Go over to a friends? Shopping? Isn't that the beauty of not knowing what your going to do when the weekend arrives. I love mysteries, riddles and adventures. I have a great curiosity. I'm the type of person who doesn't want the answer when given a riddle, unless I think about it non-stop and it boils my head for two weeks and i still haven't found an answer. I'm that kind of a person.
This week i encounter haters of whom I'd had grudges. Two of them. On the way back from my pleasant walk, I looked forward to the comfort of home where I would be able to relax and have my own personal space and act however the heck i want. Unfortunately i came across the pair of girls who I hated very much the year before. I will not mention any names because if I did it would be my sin. Well anyway, as I walk by, words come out of their filthy mouths. I have to admit though they weren't as harsh as fuck or cunt but you could say it does hurt. Yes, i do use that word among my friends and they use it back but it's very different when you speak words among your friends compared to people whom you scorn. With friends you have that understanding while many barriers have been broken allowing you to act more freely. In this scenario I did not retaliate, why? I did not want to cause drama, I wanted a silent night and i was too tired. In a way that was totally not my personality, if I had seen them at a time where I was more settled I would have loudly argued. If I were with a friend I would have had confidence to give back and scar them in there mind. There's one thing that I will not take and that is bullshit from others. Back to the topic. I walked off, like I had never cared and ignored them completely as if they weren't even there. That's what i usually do to escape situations, I just ignore situations I don't like. I just block people out from my view if I'm uncomfortable with it. Am i scared of what will happen next if i open my big mouth? That's the thing with me, I don't really think twice, I just say things which pop up in an environment where I feel uncaged. I mean realistically, if everyone thought twice every time they said something then the world would be boring and i can tell you that I myself with many other will lose their temper. I keep going off topic. Anyway, after i walked off and arrived home, those words played. I didn't want them to let me down. I then went to my room, looked in the mirror and just stared. In my mind I though to myself. I'm better than them. I'm better in all sports than them and I'm healthy and fit. They can shake there butts all they like and waddle but they'll never possess what I have. I'm much smarter intellectually and I have better ability to reason and to understand. I have many more connections with people who serve the community, I have a heard voice in the community. I have self control and have awareness. Unlike them I do not smoke, I never intend to. I don't hang out with other junkies when night falls and jig school. I intend to have goals in life, experience every bit of life all the way and venture in the depths of the world. I also don't intend to drop out of school and work at any first job I'm offered... I hold dignity. After the moment of rapid, streaming thoughts, I whispered to myself. "I am much more of what they are." That is the truth. I am a stronger person than the two together. There is no battle to be fought, I have already won. Whats the point of stabbing a soldier "on the other side" when they have already deceased? You'll just make a mess and splatter the blood everywhere. I was able to redeem my pride and build on from what seemed like lost for a mere matter of minutes from a disturbed word repeated. I'm not diligent to redeem my intuition and pride back, I still have it with an addition. I am puissant.

Caged In!

Long weekend. I'm truly living it up, literally every minute in front of various books. This long weekend, it's been myself and a variety of books sitting together. I'm caged in this weekend. There was and arrangement of a party which hung in the air for me to attend but unfortunately i had to turn that offer down.

On the other hand i bothered to read my horoscope earlier last week. I wanted to see if they are really true. Usually when i read horoscopes they have this way of telling you passively about your future, like they don't mention it in straightforward english language, horoscope i tend to find hover around the future because they're scared to get it wrong. A bit like my science teacher i must say. You never get a straightforward answer.
"What is a solvent?" i ask.
"A solvent has the ability to dissolve or saturate particles. Solvents are not solid. When particles dissolve into the solvent, the solvent now consumes the particles henceforth change its properties which forms a new mixture," is the reply.
See in this example where the answer only hovers around the topic. If then i had asked my teacher "So what exactly is a solvent?" i get a reply of "Did you listen to me young lady or are you just ignorant?" This is another example, answers given in question form.
I would have preferred an answer of "A solvent is a liquid which dissolves a substance".
Just thinking now, it's quite ironic how the most different of people can relate. I mean, science speaks in evidence and logic where as astrology talks in predictions without having to describe any evidence.
Anyway i said earlier but drifted away i did read my horoscope and for a matter of fact they described a portion of it in "straightforward english language". The weekly scope mentioned that my hectic life would chill for me by Thursday. In fact that was quite right, i did have a lot of worries during the last week and the week before even if they were just small little reminders that i had to attend to, silly mistakes that i had made and words of which people had said good or bad kept ringing in my head. They were all quite small things to deal with but they all built up at once, it was quite hard to concentrate with words running through my head. This made me build more self consciousness, in this case it's quite a bad thing because before doing anything i would just think and think. Generally i am quite a self conscious person but anymore just slows my life having no time for anything. So to fix this problem i had to stop my routine and just sit in my room and relax my mind. So the week before the last (today is Monday) i took a note to have a break from my external activities and just sat in my room. I remember this was on a Saturday, i sat in my room. I just sat on my bed blankly and if thoughts went scurrying through my head i would not neglect or consume every fact but i would just let them pass through trying not to have opinions. It actually worked. I felt better, i didn't keep track of the time because that day was my opportunity to be blank. I then fixed my mind on lateral games from the internet to distract my mind and get my brain working. This week you can say I'm quite refreshed in time for the caged weekend.

This week has been really dull in weather and my hobbies. I found a relation between myself and Rodger Federer. Yep, that right the legendary tennis player! I guess I'm quite a good tennis player(no boasting). But losing a tennis match isn't my thing and it usually happens once in a blue moon. These last three consecutive weeks have been horror and misery in my tennis life. I've lost all three games in a row. Including a person who I've played and one once before and also beat in a finals match. I lost! That's all i can say. But the weird thing is the scenario didn't recount thoroughly in my mind. It's like i barely cared if i was losing or i had lost through the match and after. The only thing i can diagnose is that I'm distracted. Distracted in life. But distracted by what? That is what i can't find. Anyway as i observe the media. Rodger Federer has been losing his matches aswell these days. I mean who has actually seen Federer lose? What a coincidence. I mean you may think that i lose all the time but in 3 continuous tournaments I've kept a perfect score without a loss and now things change. I don't even find tennis training intriguing anymore. Am i bored of tennis? I can't be. Or maybe it's just a phase I'm going through. This week I have not found a patch of time to even step outside. I barely do any physical activity beside training anyway but still. I usually take my dog out for walks which adds to my physical activity table. That's about it. I really feel like a caged budgie these few weeks.

Talking about the American elections about Barack Obama and Hillary Clinton. Something occured to me out of the blue. Barack Obama if elected as president will become the first "black" president of America. If this is so then how ironic is it that many presidents in movies are usually "black". I mean they even made a documentary of how Barack Obama is "black". It's funny how i actually watched that. What's the big deal he's just another person. But i one thing that i have learnt is that your background will always be thought about be people who approach you. No matter if they don't categorise there will always be that thought if you think deep.

Stop Holding Me Back

Exactly two weeks since my last entry. I really need to keep typing more.
Half yearlies are up and there's always that push from parents that pressures an extra to your body weight. So this fortnight progresses with that feeling of regret to study which pulls me down. This month I'm indulging in too many chocolates. Of course they're delicious but i really need to control my cravings. I've also seemed to be cutting down on my physical activity which is basically taking my dog for a walk each day. Could this attitude be an outcome of the chilly weather? Maybe so. The sun sets really early and i struggle to find as little as a ray of light to go for a walk after school.

Fortunately thought my sores don't hurt anymore but there's a nice pink bruise on my knee for myself to nurture. Today i have to say was the most boring day. Nothing interesting popped out of nowhere, no conversation bloomed out of air and there was definitely no laughter to sound. Today was a big frown rather than a smile. I mean, Saturday, the day of relaxation, Infinite hours of sleep and spending quality time with friends and family. There was nothing of that. I did go out today but i was just following the crowd or the order. Following in line, that is all, nothing more. It was quite unlike Friday. Friday was full of laughter.

Feel the Wrath of Mr Pain

Well during the week we had our athletics carnival, lasting for two days. What can i say, it was exactly like any other athletics carnival but compared to my other experiences with athletics carnivals this was almost like a jig. We had a fair bit of free time to chat amongst. Unfortunately on the first day of the carnival nearing to the finish of the day i was injured whilst running around playing a game. I slid near a slope, scraping my right knee, leaving a round patch of cut skin and dripping blood. Thankfully this incident didn't take place while participating in any events. Even through the day "the fall" took place the blood didn't stop pouring out. Overall I wouldn't say the injury deeply affected myself during the carnival but that was still a responsibility to encounter competing in the events.

Another chapter of the week was just two days ago when i was at tennis training. It was as usual, running laps, a series of drills and then for the hard core training. Pfft, "hard core", totally. Well anyway, during the "hard core training" i swing at my racquet confident to "magically place" the ball in the court(i truly don't know how i do it, it's amazing, really. xD). As i do so my brain over indulges with the fact of power rather than precision. I swing and hit the ball, lose my ability to balance and control myself by the millisecond, unknowingly smashing the racquet into my nose. Smack down! Ouch! what else can i say? Well really, i didn't say anything. I placed my hand over my nose, trying to make realisation of the pain, I turn away from the court speaking not a sound. It shut my talkative side alright. I got it good, right in the nose. Fortunately for the big swing I had achieved the job of "placing the ball" into the court. Although tears gushed outwards from my eyes. I did not cry. But still water ran out. I didn't break and cry. That isn't classified crying, right? It's like when you yawn and tears fall out of your eye, except in this scenario it was myself punching out my sense of smell. No blood though. I was strong and able to continue training though. I like playing tennis, it gives me an opportunity to escape the worries life throws out at you and express any anger you have in more than just words. When i arrived home i raced to the freezer, grabbed out a frozen packet of whatever it was, put on a jacket and plopped on the sofa like a potato. And that is when I felt it, the pain, it really gets to you when you start relaxing because that is when the signals transfer from one vein to the other being concious. With weather as cold as ice these days the pain was unendurable. You ask what state i'm in two days later (now)? I sit here bearing the twinge of both sores. My knee hasn't healed and my nose is still swollen. They better cure before Monday. Or, or... Or else.

Vacation Is...

Well one last day of the holidays unable to post much in the last few days because of the many parties I've been attending.
4 parties all smashed together which was full on because i didn't have a minute to think or rest.
This whole week was mainly spent shopping for presents, writing cards and planning on arrival at the parties which includes what to where which is normally a big hassle.
I had heaps of fun though, living every bit and seizing the days left of time.
It feels great when your around a bunch of people you know and enjoy the moment.
There were certain places where i didn't know my way around the crowd but eventually found my way around in one of the parties i went to.
I feel so sleepy and exhausted and even numb.
Time to head back to that everyday routine. How boring.
I realise now that you live most of your life to work.

Spending Time With Satisfaction

Yesterday most of my time was spent wondering through shops with my friends.
It was quite a day with laughter and voices which filled the air.
I plan to do that tomorrow as well in order to pass through my holidays with satisfaction.
Yesterday my friends and i had watched a movie which i didn't find very entertaining which took away my curiosity to watch another.
Today's day is probably just a plain holiday day.
Just lazing around and hopefully i can be bothered to finish my homework.
We only have a few more days to go and BAM! it's back to school.
I reckon the next few days are going to fly like crazy even though i hope they wouldn't
I want to do something exciting these holidays and I'll see what the next few days bring to my experiences.

Boredom Engulfs one

Exactly one more week of my holidays.
Today's time was spent basically going shopping for a couple of hours and watching TV.
Time passed by quickly since i stayed up watching cricket yesterday and waking up at 12:30pm.
I thought that was a very late start today and i basically wasted my day away.
I want to start waking up earlier tomorrow as a soon as i can and experience my holiday to the max.
There's nothing really max i can do though but just live up all I've got.
I think I'm letting the days rot away just being simply lazy I've got to do something about that.
This is my second post and I'm quite amazed that i bothered to actually post this reply.
Let's see if i can maintain the pace.

First Post

This is a start to my new blog. A start to release my thoughts and opinions.
The only hurdle to pass is to consistently keep a record on my happenings for this blog and hopefully the blog does not die away.

The winter holidays are quite boring, nothing to do.
It's so cold to go outside and even when the mood comes it starts raining.
This time feels lifeless and bleak.
I need a new hobby to fill these holidays.
Something i can rely on to be there any moment i want.
So that's why I've turned to blogging.